Aru ki shadi ko dus din beet gaye the.Siddhant wapas Dilli chala gaya tha.Uske ghar Kavita ki shadi ki taiyyari chal rahi thi.Aur wah fir shadi ke liye kuch hi dino me ghar aane wala tha.Itne dino mein Aashu se bhi uski baat nahi hui thi so ek din fursat se usne Aashu ko ring kiya.
"sab thik to hai na?"Aashu ne pucha.
"Haan"
"tum khush to ho na?"
"Khushi to nahi...per haan,secure mahsoos kar rahi hu"
"Khush kyu nahi ho?"
"frend ko husband sweekarne me kuch waqt to lagega na? Mujhse ye sochkar khush raha hi nahi jata ki Siddhant,mera dost mera pati hai"
"ek baat kahu?"
"kaho"
"Khush rahne ke liye zaruri hai adjust karna.Agar tum apni paristhiti se samjhauta kar leti ho to tum khush rahogi kyunki jo hai,wah badal nahi sakta.Tumhare paas jo hai,jitna hai,tumhe utne mein hi apni khushi talash karni chahiye.Asantusht rahne se khushi nahi milti hai.Tum zindagi ke prati apna nazariya badlo,zindagi khud hi badal jayegi.Achche nazar se dekhogi to achchi aur bure nazar se dekhogi to buri ho jayegi"
"tum thik kah rahe ho"
"you know I am always right.Waise jeeja ji hain kahan? Patna ya Dilli?"
"abhi Dilli me hai,Kavita ki shadi me ayega"
"wah wahan aur tum yahan?"
"haan,jab tak Nikki ki padhai khatam nahi ho jati,main yahi rahungi.Uske baad jab Nikki ka admission MBA mein ho jayega tab main Siddhant ke pas chali jaungi,aisa socha hai maine"
"Aur Siddhant kya chahta hai?"
"Pata nahi,maine uss se pucha hi nahi,bas apna faisla suna diya to wah maan gaya"
"ye to galat baat hai.Aage se akele koi faisla mat lena.Pahle usse vichar-vimarsh zarur kar lena.Waise ek baat to zarur hai,tumhare parents ne koi punya hi kiya tha jo tumhara janam unke ghar hua"
"Aur maine koi paap....Khair chhodo! main kitna bhi achcha kaam karu,kuch bhi kar loon,per Papa na pahle mujhe dil se beti maante the,na bhavishya me manenge!Kitna achcha hota na Aashu ki abhi bhi koi chamatkar ho jata aur ek subah jab main so ke uthati to khud ko Nimmi aur Nikki ki tarah gori-chitti paati!!"Aru ki yah bachkani baat sunn kar Aashu hans diya.
"waise Bharat me rah ke tumhare papa Videshiyon ki tarah kyu rang-bhed kar rahe hain ye main samajh nahi pata hu."Wah achanak gambhir ho gaya,"yah kisi se nafrat karne ki thos wajah nahi hai! ek na ek din ahsaas hoga ki jise unhone koyla samajh kar chhod diya tha,wah heera hai!"
"unko ye kabhi mashoos ho na ho,per unke liye mere mann mein khatas ke alawa aur kuch nahi hai,Meri zindagi ko tabah karne mein unhone apni ore se toh koi kasar nahi chhodi thi"Aru gusse mein boli.
"per ab to zindagi sanwar gayi na,to ab tum purani baate bhool kyu nahi jaati?"
"chahti to main bhi aisa hi hu...infact ghum ka ahsaas ab kuch halka bhi ho gaya hai..shayad samay ke sath mit bhi jaye"
"I wish aisa hi ho"
Siddhant ki anupasthiti mein Aru ki zindagi purane dharre per chal rahi thi.Kavita ki shadi ke baad Siddhant ka Patna aana kam ho gaya tha.Fir bhi wah kabhi kabhar Shanivar ko aa kar,ravivaar ki sham ko laut jata tha.Aru ko ye thik nahi lagta tha,kyunki Siddhant ko iss se asuwidha hoti thi ye wah janti thi.Per uske paas aur koi dusra rasta nahi tha milne ka.Siddhant ne ab tak apne Papa se kuch kaha tha,na hi Aru ne kisi se kuch kaha tha.Sabne chuppi sadh li ki jab pata chalna hoga,chal hi jayega.
Achanak ek din Aru ko pata chala ki Siddhant ke papa ka dehant ho gaya hai.Iss dukhad samachar ko paakar bhi Aru uske ghar nahi ja payi.Kyunki uski tabiyat kuch thik nahi thi.Wah chahti thi ki Siddhant usse doctor ke paas le chale per aise waqt me ye sambhav nahi tha,so wah akeli hi chali gayi.Uska andaza sahi tha,wah maa banne wali thi,do mahine ka garbh tha.Siddhant ko ye batana zaruri tha per ye sahi waqt nahi tha.Fir usne Siddhant ko phone kiya.
"mujhe location samjha dete to main aa jati"
"tum ghar aana chahti ho?"
"haan,Mummy se milne ka mann tha aur fir tumse bhi ek baat karni thi..""
"main bhi chahta tha ki tum yahan aao,but mummy ne kaha ki abhi grihpravesh ka shubh muhurat nahi hai..isiliye tumhe bulane nahi aaya.Waise kya baat hai? kuch important hai to abhi bolo,ya fir jab aaunga tab batana"
"baat bad me ho skti hai,koi baat nahi tum pareshan mat hona aur mummy ka khayal rakhna,wo upset hongi na"
"maine unhe aise kabhi nahi dekha hai...wo toot gayi hain Aru! Bahut dukh ho raha hai mujhe...Bhagwaan pati patni ki jodi ko kyu alag kar dete hain?Mummy kaise rahengi unke bina Aru?"kahte huye Siddhant ka gala bhar aaya to Aru bhi udas ho gayi.
"samay ke sath mummy bhi normal ho jayengi..time heals everything"
"to kya tum abhi apni bat nahi kar sakti ho?"Siddhant ne topic change kiya.
"kah sakti hu,per kahna nahi chahti...ek baat kahu,bura nahi manoge na?"
"kaho na.."
"tum upset nahi ho na...tum bahut normal sound kar rahe ho...."
"main normal isiliye hu kyunki main janta hu ki jo chala gaya hai wo laut ke nahi ayega..! per iska matlab ye nahi hai ki main dukhi nahi hu.Raat ko jab sone jata hu to unki yaad aati hai..aisa lagta hai ab mera guardian koi nahi raha...bachpan ki kitni saari baatein yaad aati hain..papa hum dono ke sath sunday ko khelte bhi the..hamari har demand puri karte the..mummy mana bhi karti thi ki bachcho ko kyu bigaad rahe hain? to papa kahte the-main nahi karunga to aur kaun karega mere bachcho k liye? aur aaj Aru,mere liye sab kuch karne wale mere papa nahi rahe"kahkar siddhant chup ho gaya.Kuch pal yu hi beet gaye,wo kuch nahi bola to Aru samajh gayi ki wah zarur ro raha hai.
"I am so sorry Siddhant,mujhe aisa nahi kahna chahiye tha..Mujhse sachmuch galati ho gayi"Aru ko apradhbodh hua.
'"per fir bhi Aru,apne liye kam aur mummy ke liye jyada dukh ho raha hai mujhe.Main to apne work me busy rahunga,aur fir mere paas tum bhi ho,per mummy to akeli ho jayengi.Unka dukh baantne wala koi nahi hai Aru!"
"hum log hain na Siddhant"
"haan hum hain to..per jeevansathi ki jagah koi nahi le sakta,uske sath ki zarurat to jeevan bhar rahti hai"
"Tum mujhe chhod to nahi doge na Siddhant?"
"ye kya kah rahi ho?maine tumhe chhodne k liye shadi thode hi ki hai..."Aru ke prashn per wo chaunk gaya.
"main kaali si hoon na,tumhare aage main kahi stand nahi karti isliye...."
"come on Aru! tum janti ho main tumse kitna pyar karta hu...aur chahe kuch bhi ho jaye main hamesha tumhare sath hoon.Achcha batao ab tumhari tabiyat kaisi hai?"
"thik hai"
"Achcha ab rakhta hu...milte hain kisi din to baat hogi"
"OK"
END OF PART-7
"sab thik to hai na?"Aashu ne pucha.
"Haan"
"tum khush to ho na?"
"Khushi to nahi...per haan,secure mahsoos kar rahi hu"
"Khush kyu nahi ho?"
"frend ko husband sweekarne me kuch waqt to lagega na? Mujhse ye sochkar khush raha hi nahi jata ki Siddhant,mera dost mera pati hai"
"ek baat kahu?"
"kaho"
"Khush rahne ke liye zaruri hai adjust karna.Agar tum apni paristhiti se samjhauta kar leti ho to tum khush rahogi kyunki jo hai,wah badal nahi sakta.Tumhare paas jo hai,jitna hai,tumhe utne mein hi apni khushi talash karni chahiye.Asantusht rahne se khushi nahi milti hai.Tum zindagi ke prati apna nazariya badlo,zindagi khud hi badal jayegi.Achche nazar se dekhogi to achchi aur bure nazar se dekhogi to buri ho jayegi"
"tum thik kah rahe ho"
"you know I am always right.Waise jeeja ji hain kahan? Patna ya Dilli?"
"abhi Dilli me hai,Kavita ki shadi me ayega"
"wah wahan aur tum yahan?"
"haan,jab tak Nikki ki padhai khatam nahi ho jati,main yahi rahungi.Uske baad jab Nikki ka admission MBA mein ho jayega tab main Siddhant ke pas chali jaungi,aisa socha hai maine"
"Aur Siddhant kya chahta hai?"
"Pata nahi,maine uss se pucha hi nahi,bas apna faisla suna diya to wah maan gaya"
"ye to galat baat hai.Aage se akele koi faisla mat lena.Pahle usse vichar-vimarsh zarur kar lena.Waise ek baat to zarur hai,tumhare parents ne koi punya hi kiya tha jo tumhara janam unke ghar hua"
"Aur maine koi paap....Khair chhodo! main kitna bhi achcha kaam karu,kuch bhi kar loon,per Papa na pahle mujhe dil se beti maante the,na bhavishya me manenge!Kitna achcha hota na Aashu ki abhi bhi koi chamatkar ho jata aur ek subah jab main so ke uthati to khud ko Nimmi aur Nikki ki tarah gori-chitti paati!!"Aru ki yah bachkani baat sunn kar Aashu hans diya.
"waise Bharat me rah ke tumhare papa Videshiyon ki tarah kyu rang-bhed kar rahe hain ye main samajh nahi pata hu."Wah achanak gambhir ho gaya,"yah kisi se nafrat karne ki thos wajah nahi hai! ek na ek din ahsaas hoga ki jise unhone koyla samajh kar chhod diya tha,wah heera hai!"
"unko ye kabhi mashoos ho na ho,per unke liye mere mann mein khatas ke alawa aur kuch nahi hai,Meri zindagi ko tabah karne mein unhone apni ore se toh koi kasar nahi chhodi thi"Aru gusse mein boli.
"per ab to zindagi sanwar gayi na,to ab tum purani baate bhool kyu nahi jaati?"
"chahti to main bhi aisa hi hu...infact ghum ka ahsaas ab kuch halka bhi ho gaya hai..shayad samay ke sath mit bhi jaye"
"I wish aisa hi ho"
Siddhant ki anupasthiti mein Aru ki zindagi purane dharre per chal rahi thi.Kavita ki shadi ke baad Siddhant ka Patna aana kam ho gaya tha.Fir bhi wah kabhi kabhar Shanivar ko aa kar,ravivaar ki sham ko laut jata tha.Aru ko ye thik nahi lagta tha,kyunki Siddhant ko iss se asuwidha hoti thi ye wah janti thi.Per uske paas aur koi dusra rasta nahi tha milne ka.Siddhant ne ab tak apne Papa se kuch kaha tha,na hi Aru ne kisi se kuch kaha tha.Sabne chuppi sadh li ki jab pata chalna hoga,chal hi jayega.
Achanak ek din Aru ko pata chala ki Siddhant ke papa ka dehant ho gaya hai.Iss dukhad samachar ko paakar bhi Aru uske ghar nahi ja payi.Kyunki uski tabiyat kuch thik nahi thi.Wah chahti thi ki Siddhant usse doctor ke paas le chale per aise waqt me ye sambhav nahi tha,so wah akeli hi chali gayi.Uska andaza sahi tha,wah maa banne wali thi,do mahine ka garbh tha.Siddhant ko ye batana zaruri tha per ye sahi waqt nahi tha.Fir usne Siddhant ko phone kiya.
"mujhe location samjha dete to main aa jati"
"tum ghar aana chahti ho?"
"haan,Mummy se milne ka mann tha aur fir tumse bhi ek baat karni thi..""
"main bhi chahta tha ki tum yahan aao,but mummy ne kaha ki abhi grihpravesh ka shubh muhurat nahi hai..isiliye tumhe bulane nahi aaya.Waise kya baat hai? kuch important hai to abhi bolo,ya fir jab aaunga tab batana"
"baat bad me ho skti hai,koi baat nahi tum pareshan mat hona aur mummy ka khayal rakhna,wo upset hongi na"
"maine unhe aise kabhi nahi dekha hai...wo toot gayi hain Aru! Bahut dukh ho raha hai mujhe...Bhagwaan pati patni ki jodi ko kyu alag kar dete hain?Mummy kaise rahengi unke bina Aru?"kahte huye Siddhant ka gala bhar aaya to Aru bhi udas ho gayi.
"samay ke sath mummy bhi normal ho jayengi..time heals everything"
"to kya tum abhi apni bat nahi kar sakti ho?"Siddhant ne topic change kiya.
"kah sakti hu,per kahna nahi chahti...ek baat kahu,bura nahi manoge na?"
"kaho na.."
"tum upset nahi ho na...tum bahut normal sound kar rahe ho...."
"main normal isiliye hu kyunki main janta hu ki jo chala gaya hai wo laut ke nahi ayega..! per iska matlab ye nahi hai ki main dukhi nahi hu.Raat ko jab sone jata hu to unki yaad aati hai..aisa lagta hai ab mera guardian koi nahi raha...bachpan ki kitni saari baatein yaad aati hain..papa hum dono ke sath sunday ko khelte bhi the..hamari har demand puri karte the..mummy mana bhi karti thi ki bachcho ko kyu bigaad rahe hain? to papa kahte the-main nahi karunga to aur kaun karega mere bachcho k liye? aur aaj Aru,mere liye sab kuch karne wale mere papa nahi rahe"kahkar siddhant chup ho gaya.Kuch pal yu hi beet gaye,wo kuch nahi bola to Aru samajh gayi ki wah zarur ro raha hai.
"I am so sorry Siddhant,mujhe aisa nahi kahna chahiye tha..Mujhse sachmuch galati ho gayi"Aru ko apradhbodh hua.
'"per fir bhi Aru,apne liye kam aur mummy ke liye jyada dukh ho raha hai mujhe.Main to apne work me busy rahunga,aur fir mere paas tum bhi ho,per mummy to akeli ho jayengi.Unka dukh baantne wala koi nahi hai Aru!"
"hum log hain na Siddhant"
"haan hum hain to..per jeevansathi ki jagah koi nahi le sakta,uske sath ki zarurat to jeevan bhar rahti hai"
"Tum mujhe chhod to nahi doge na Siddhant?"
"ye kya kah rahi ho?maine tumhe chhodne k liye shadi thode hi ki hai..."Aru ke prashn per wo chaunk gaya.
"main kaali si hoon na,tumhare aage main kahi stand nahi karti isliye...."
"come on Aru! tum janti ho main tumse kitna pyar karta hu...aur chahe kuch bhi ho jaye main hamesha tumhare sath hoon.Achcha batao ab tumhari tabiyat kaisi hai?"
"thik hai"
"Achcha ab rakhta hu...milte hain kisi din to baat hogi"
"OK"
END OF PART-7
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